'Sorry... i read ur post.. i didnt mean wad i sent yesterday.. but its the way you put in the post like you shooting me..n i didnt mean it that way.' The guy was halfway through his dinner when he recieved this. Hmm so she read my post.. He thought. feeling slightly annoyed, he replied 'Ya wadeva.' But after sometime when there was no reply, and wondering if his reply was too bad and had hurt her, he decided to confront the issue.


'How can you not mean it?' He began. 'Thats absolute bullshit!' You mean if its not a misunderstanding then you mean it? And if it is, you dont mean it?'
He thought it very childish to say something and then not mean it because it turns out to be a misunderstanding. Unable to stop himself, he went on to address the issues he had been longing to ask her about for a long time. 'How would you feel if i as your current bf put on my blog things like i want a gf whos lets say tall..?' He asked her. That was how he felt when he saw it. And as he continued, he became more heated up and as if something deep in him was slowly starting to wake up, He started saying things that he felt ashamed to have said after that. 'Tts like proclaiming to the world im single please come after me or im so damn unhappy with my current partner n i wish for a change.. Tts your attitude from the start? Do you like having as many guys going after you or something?'


He knew what she would reply and it was as expected again. She said 'no if you think that way i have nothing to say.. n in this area i didnt entertain anyone since that INCIDENT.. i appreciated you n aeverythin but its just that i nv show n express.. i dont know how to n i dont deny i was touched..' Touched? Touched? He told himself Thats all? He didint know whether to believe her or not regarding this and thought that not knowing how to express feelings all is just a convenient excuse for her all along. 'Oh no? No! I don't remember you intiate anything like sending messages containing msges like i love you or i miss you. N when i do, all i recieve is a smiley face or no reply at all.' Not knowing how to express? Too busy to remember me? Great convenient excuses he thinks. Nay, the real reason is she does not miss nor love me at all thus it does not come to her mind to send such stuff. He was sure of that at least. How could anyone be too busy to miss someone?


'I get the whole picture now.. im sorry for giving u a bad rela n i didnt play my part well..hope u w find some1 beta than me.. i gt nth to say le..'
He cooled down a little bit as he recieved that n told her it didnt matter anymore, that it was past n he hopes that nothing will tarnish the good memories they shared. As for the bad memories, he did not want to remember those anymore. 'Have you ever really loved me? Or was it all fake.' That was the only thing he wanted to know.


'Of cos i love you.. do you hate me?' He didnt know what to say.. just no i dont hate you and i wish to keep the good memories we shared n discard the bad. 'Really..? guess its the last time im telling you this.. I love you dar..frm the on start till nw.. it never changed..