I have finished Mary Shelley's Frankenstein! By the looks of the book, i assumed it would take me quite some time to finish it, but amazingly, i completed it in 2 days! 'Nothing commendable' sneered my sister, but im proud of it anyway. Haha i cant log in to msn for some weird reason! Something about key ports. And im not sure if im going to h.s ltr since im probably not playing anything.. we'll see. Christmas is coming soon! Feeling quite excited, and most probably doing something interesting.

Somehow, i have reverted to being a bookworm all over again.. Í've just embarked on a new book, 'Frankenstein' by Mary Shelley and im almost halfway through already i should be alble to finish it by Monday. And i think i did pretty well for my Digital Fundamentals Lab test today. Well Dfund is my best and fave subject, so its no wonder i feel so confident about it.. As for the other subjects, well lets just say im not very interested at all. But i can do pretty well in them as well. The main problem however, has nothing to do with my brain power. It is entirely due to the fact that im not dilligent enough, and i feel i've messed up too much, to have any chance of a ideal 'good' future (according to the whole world) now. So well it just leads to more slacking, but usually, i'll manage to pull myself to try, even though i know the situation is pretty bad. But it beats not doing anything anyway. Sighs, how i wish im a more hardworking and self disciplined person. All succesful people become succesful through hard work and self disciplince. Well i've known all these for years, and i havn't become much better now, and i doubt it'll ever change. I wish i can die. But i cant, cos i'll probably go to hell. Haha well, maybe its not too late to try and improve. Well it beats suicide and hell at least. Unless im very much mistaken, im quite certain that everyone have suicidal thoughts once in a while right? Ok this post is getting too long and im getting carried away..haha well i'll update again.

Havn't blogged for a long time, since i dont have alot to blog about.. well continuing from my last post, Mother Teresa is not as boring as i thought it would be. And i just found out that alot of words comes from Greek myths. Take 'Arachnids' the word used as a class for creatures like spiders. As legend goes, there was this beautiful goddess whose realm is the earth and farms. Her name is Athena. Now she was a very great weaver, and it was her who weaved the robes for Zeus and dyed it with the colors of the rainbow and the sunset. but she was a very jealous goddess. Among the mortals. there was a girl named Aranche and she was beautiful and very skillful with weaving as well. She even boasted that she is a better weaver than the goddess Athena! Athena was very furious and wanted to kill her. In the end, the story goes that the two of them Athena and Aranche would have a competition and if Aranche won, Athena would spare her life but if she lost, Athena would kill her. Aranche lost. When she saw the beauty of what Athena the goddess weaved, using the clouds as the finest strings in the world and dyed it with the sunset and the rainbows, Aranche went silently to a tree and hanged herself. Athena looked upon her, and touched her body. It began to turn black and shrink rapidly and her eyes bulged out further. Four more legs grew from her body. Athen then touched the string which she had used to hang herself, and it became thinner and thinner, until finally it was a single silky strand. Aranche is a spider now, free to weave without rivalry. Thus, the word Aranchnids is used to class spiders and scorpions and thier relatives.

Dracula is officially finished! Took me 1 whole week to finish it. Read so slowly cos it wasn't very interesting during the middle part, but the beginning and the ending is exceptionally good. I think Harry Potter and The Lord of the Rings hooks me better. However, the way they finished Dracula off was abit too fast... i would have liked, that just when they were about to finish him off, the sun would set and Dracula would wake up and there would be a good fight, followed by some last words. Nvm.. it was a good ending, and i prefer those happily ever after sort of ending anyway. Van Helsing is definitely very cool. Mother Teresa tonight.. looks very boring, and i expect i would doze off during the movie, since i do not think i would not like it much im afraid.

We have just recieved intelligence that another child, missed last night, was only discovered late in the morning under a furze bush at the Shooter's Hill side of Hampstead Heath, which is, perhaps, less frequented than the other parts. It has the same tiny wound in the throat as has been noticed in other cases. It was terribly weak, and looked quite emaciated. It too, when partially restored, had the common story to tell of being lured away by the 'bloofer lady.' I looked up, just in time to see the bus coming to a stop at my destination. I closed the book and hurried to get off the bus. It seemed a boring day ahead, and i'll rather be back home with my book. Dracula is a really interesting read and i intend to finish it by next week. I have only gotten halfway through now, though. The events during the weekends still lingers on my mind, and that did little to help stop me wish that im still enjoying my weekends. Saturday especially, was really special.. as in i did not expect to find myself in so many interesting events in one day. I had woken up not feeling anything special whatsoever, but like many a times, you would wake up not expecting anything, but by the end of the day, you feel bowled over with everything that happened. Let us start with saturday morning. I had a good game of dota, victorious against my friend. Now that would definitely continue to lift my spirits for a few weeks. Went for outreach session, and that was where everything happened. It was such a beautiful and touching picture. Two people who cared and loved the other so much, tears and emotions in the air.. once again, i wished to have a girl whose heart beats solely for me, and mine for her. At night, another couple who looked like they will never have any quarrels, and they enjoys being together so much. Makes me envious, to be honest. And i did something that shocked myself as well. Somehow by dinner time, i had some kind of a revelation. Its like God meant to show me that i was so immature and i shldn't have behaved that way, much as i dislike anybody. So i intended to try, to not dislike ppl so much. Since its probably my own problem, that i am too easily irritated. And saturday night ended with a interesting scene. Hint to self: Staircase.


Sunday, went to church, been a long time since i was last found so convicted by the message. about honouring 'The Lord's day'. Had an interesting game of pool, during which i performed (according to myself) my most beautiful shot, which made vic so impressed that he was in such a state of amazement for a while. That made my day.


Now u might perhaps, understand a little bit why i wished for more weekends.

There was a man who one day didnt feel like going to church so he decided to go hunting instead.
He was out in the bush when he was aproched from behind by a bear. He dropped his gun by accident but didnt bother to pick it up.
He ran for his life. Weaving in and out the trees with the bear on his trail. Curving around a tree he triped over its root.
He looked up and the bear looked down. The bear was about to strike at him. He put his hands together and prayed:
"Dear lord, Please let this bear be a christian."
the bear sat down on its bum and held the mans hands, closed his eyes and said: "Dear lord, Thankyou for the food that i am about to recieve"

A man calls a company and orders their 5-day, 10 lb. weight loss program.
The next day, there's a knock on the door and there stands before him a voluptuous, athletic, 19 year old babe dressed in nothing but a pair of Nike running shoes and a sign around her neck.
She introduces herself as a representative of the weight loss company.
The sign reads, "If you can catch me, you can have me."
Without a second thought, he takes off after her.
A few miles later huffing and puffing, he finally gives up.
The same girl shows up for the next four days and the same thing happens.
On the fifth day, he weighs himself and is delighted to find he has lost 10 lbs. as promised.
He calls the company and orders their 5-day/20 pound program.
The next day there's a knock at the door and there stands the most stunning and beautiful woman he has ever seen in his life.
She is wearing nothing but Reebok running shoes and a sign around her neck that reads, "If you catch me you can have me."
Well, he's out the door after her like a shot.
This girl is in excellent shape and he does his best, but no such luck.
So for the next four days, the same routine happens with him gradually getting in better and better shape.
Much to his delight on the fifth day when he weighs himself, he discovers that he has lost another 20 lbs. as promised.
He decides to go for broke and calls the company to order the 7-day/50 pound program.
"Are you sure?" asks the representative on the phone. "This is our most rigorous program."
"Absolutely," he replies, "I haven't felt this good in years."
The next day there's a knock at the door; and when he opens it he finds a huge muscular guy standing there wearing nothing but pink running shoes and a sign around his neck that reads,"If I catch you, you are mine!!!"
He lost 63 pounds that week.

You criticize what you do not know
You belittle those who aren't like you
You insult, you lie, and you manipulate
to make yourself seem superior
Have you not realized that you're putting yourself down
the same way you do to others?
Snide remarks and crude comments
They come from inside you
From inside that "perfection" you try to push forward
and force into everyone's face
Remarks and insults coming from you
simply reveal what you truly are


Insecure


You let your insecurity control you
You allow it to take your sense and maturity hostage
Those people out there didn't do this to you
They never insulted you,
never belittled you,
never treated you as demeaningly as you treat them
They're the innocents being affected
by your inner battle with yourself.
You insult because you're afraid.
The qualities you despise in yourself
shadow your eyesand become the qualities of
someone else -an innocent.
You may think it's fun to laugh at that poor bystander.
You may think it'll make you God,
but, in the end, you'll realize
that you were doing battle with yourself the whole time.
After all, you are your own worst critic.



The day started with a embarrasing and obvious zit above his lips. He poked gently at it, considering the irritation. It wasn't that obvious when you look at it at a distance, he consoled himself.. after all, it was the self confidence you carry that really matters. He would not let a pimple down his confidence. In fact, he begun to believe that that pimple made him look rather cute. He smiled at his reflection and left the house. The sermon was long and he felt both hungry and uncomfortable. He touched his pimple absent-mindedly again. The pastor had been emphasizing the same point for the last half an hour and he was getting seriously bored. He thought of music practice later on, learning the parts for the new song, and with joel on the team as well. All of a sudden , the image complete with the smell of chicken wings and bee hoon floated hungrily up. He felt his stomach growl angrily and all at once, his saliva glands worked up furiously. He swallowed, fingering his pimple again. Argh, i cant be this distrated all the time! Im supposed to be listening and captivated by the word of God! The nagging issue of his relationship with God surfaced again. he had always known, at the back of his mind, that he had never really given his life to God. Refusing to conform and becoming a Guru that fast. But he also knew that it was actually not all that bad. That blessings would come and he would be happy. At least, he can be sure that Heaven would definitely be his destination. But he always wonders, and partly knew that he might be damned, like the rest of the world. He knew all these, but he does not do them. For i do what i do not wish, and for what i wish, i do not do. He tucked this into the back of his head once again, choosing to ignore, and procrastinate. I'll be nice one day..give it all up one day..one day, one day.. though deep down, he knew that one day might never come. The guy yawned and looked at her. He wondered for the thousandth time if any thing interesting could happen between them, and if there really was as he thought, chemistry between them. Reaching into the well of his own wisdom, he decided not to dwell on it. Instead, he begun to wonder where and who to hang out with after service...


Scene 1:
"Oh come on.. not town! Not with this enormous pimple on my nose man..no way!"


Scene 2:
'Well, here we are, man Vivo City!" He groaned. His friend smiled triumphantly. Oh well, since we're here, might as well have some fun at Toy's R' Us! Whos with me! Grunts of agreement rose and they set off, a funny little group of people, for Toy's R Us. As expected from a bunch of childish people, they had heaps of fun, especially with a particular 'farting' racoon, which was super cute, and made a funny squirting sound when you squeezed its tummy. And they laughed when he got stuck on a rocking horse meant for kids, and not for a big kid like himself. The rest of the day was spent sitting down outside Carl's Jr, craping and laughing, talking and asking questions about everything under the 'Swinging man'. Night descended quickly, and it was time to go home. In the end, they went home by TRAIN, with furs on thier clothes and hair and scratches to beautify thier plain skin.


And since this post is getting too long and i have only just started, i'll best end here. =) If you have stayed with me so far, thank you!

There is 3 ppl at my house right now! ahaha

Have a break, have a kit-kat!

New skin! i tot it was kinda cute..so jus trying out..=) mayb cos i was thinking abt how i managed to survive such a long day in sch today, tt i chose a skin abt sch..well, tmr's finally friday! cool.. cos it means the last day of the weekdays..haha

Whoo i finally beat bryan's asuma!!! he say is tyco de bt nvm! i still won...somemore i managed to hit him with ulti plus critical..ahaha cool n gundam rox i hav a new ace gundam character! N pool is super fun as well.. bt kept losing somehow..haha n esp jus cant beat vic! lost with like 1, 2 balls all the time..zz haha oh well i'll beat him next time! n sch is getting more n more boring..yawnz.. oh ya..im officially smirking at a certain bh.. cos it tinks tt its v great, n it appears to be just a bh after all..