Somehow, i have reverted to being a bookworm all over again.. Í've just embarked on a new book, 'Frankenstein' by Mary Shelley and im almost halfway through already i should be alble to finish it by Monday. And i think i did pretty well for my Digital Fundamentals Lab test today. Well Dfund is my best and fave subject, so its no wonder i feel so confident about it.. As for the other subjects, well lets just say im not very interested at all. But i can do pretty well in them as well. The main problem however, has nothing to do with my brain power. It is entirely due to the fact that im not dilligent enough, and i feel i've messed up too much, to have any chance of a ideal 'good' future (according to the whole world) now. So well it just leads to more slacking, but usually, i'll manage to pull myself to try, even though i know the situation is pretty bad. But it beats not doing anything anyway. Sighs, how i wish im a more hardworking and self disciplined person. All succesful people become succesful through hard work and self disciplince. Well i've known all these for years, and i havn't become much better now, and i doubt it'll ever change. I wish i can die. But i cant, cos i'll probably go to hell. Haha well, maybe its not too late to try and improve. Well it beats suicide and hell at least. Unless im very much mistaken, im quite certain that everyone have suicidal thoughts once in a while right? Ok this post is getting too long and im getting carried away..haha well i'll update again.